I am disappointed. Today we had the first dance practice for the bollywood dance to be staged at a club in Brussels.
Now it is not fun anymore as it was last year when we were all amateurs learning dance together and putting up a show. All dancers (none from last year were there) wanted things to be at a professional level. They considered moving one of the dancers out of the group – she was most enthusiastic last time though she was not a great dancer (she was not present today). So now this friend of mine, who I called so she can dance since she wanted to dance, will do the choreography after she made statements like “Well.. if it is me doing the choreography, it is not going to be just walking around – I am going to make you work hard” and “I have made beginners who were at -50 level come up to +5 level”.
Maybe the baby has grown and flown the coup – I am still not ready to fly with it. In any case, I wanted to have fun and that is not the objective of this group – they want to do a professional show. So I have to let go. I cannot be part of it unless the previous group, whoever wants to dance, is a part of it… and besides, I am not a professional choreographer in any case. For me deciding on the steps of the dance is a group and participative effort. Besides, I am not a directive person. I am a more involving person – we made the steps by consensus last year. Maybe what the group needs is a directive person.
We did a good job last year. If they feel the same group cannot do a good job (even if one person is not involved, then I cannot be a part). I am very sad about it – but it is time to move on. Goodbye to the next thing that was keeping me tied to Brussels.
Day 82.
